Inexplicable Hunger

God.  I am so hungry.  I can’t even articulate this—argh!  It’s a heart-cry.  It’s a thirst that’s driving me crazy!  I’m so desperate to know You more.  I’m so desperate to touch You, Lord.  I want to know what it means to be a lover…a lover of God!  I’ve gone too long, Lord, not knowing what it means to TRULY be in love.  I want that God.  I want to just be in love.  Wrecklessly abandoned in love.  I want a pure devotion—God I just want You.

I’m sick and tired of gifts, and this and that—these gifts are great, and I know You want to bless me with all of them…but God what do the gifts mean if I don’t have the Giver?  If the gifts are keeping me from knowing the Giver then STRIP ME OF THEM!  I want to touch Your heart God!  I want to be ravished by you—completely devoted, completely committed.  I’m tired of half hearted ambitions, and half hearted love.  I’m tired of knowing about You, and not KNOWING You.  I don’t want to give you my mind…

I want to give You my heart.  God.  I want to give You my faithfulness.  I want to give You me.  All of me!  I’ve been holding on for so long…but for what?  And why?  I don’t understand it…but I still do it.  Teach me, break me, mold me, shape me—I want to know what it means to TRULY surrender.  To “let go and let God”.

God I want to be a lover!  Make me a lover, please, LORD.  EVEN this I cannot do on my own.  I want to WASTE my time in Your presence God.  I can so easily waste my time doing so many other trivial things…but God…I want to WASTE away my time at Your feet.  To feel Your touch…to feel Your love.

You are everything I’ve ever wanted, and all that I need.  Ugh.  God…I’m so hungry, Lord.  I’m so hungry.  I just want more…I NEED more.  I can’t live without it!  I’ll DIE WITHOUT IT!  God.  You’re so beautiful.  Sweep me off my feet.  I want to be romanced, and I want to romance You. 

Take it now.  Do whatever it takes to bring me there.  WHATEVER IT TAKES GOD. Let my worship to You be wholly pure, untainted, and entirely unadulterated.  God…let the things that come out of my mouth be from my heart.